Boudoir photos are sensitive, vulnerable and a big jump in confidence and bravery. We asked Mrs. M. about her experience with Tristynna Nygren Boudoir. This is what she had to say.
My name is Melanie, I'm 33 years old, and I am an RN. I've always been more of a shy and reserved person. Getting my picture taken is not something that I usually look forward to. I'm very self-conscious of my appearance, as I'm sure a lot of women are. I see a picture of me, and I mentally tear it apart. My acne, my thighs are too thick, cellulite, my tummy. I have gotten into running over the past 3 years, and it's certainly helped with my confidence, to a point.
Growing up, I just imagined having this absolutely perfect body once I matured, and of course that wasn't so. Where are my boobs??? I found myself constantly comparing myself to others. Once I started the running, I of course expected to have this super slender runner's body. And I don't. Don't get me wrong, it's helped some. I'm slowly learning that my body is never going to be that way. I have bigger legs.
When you look in a magazine, and everyone is a size 2, it makes you feel different. Or seeing the models with perfect complexions. Ugh. I've been fighting acne for 20 years. It can be disheartening when you don't fit that exact mold. Even knowing that they photoshop the crap out of those cover models, still says something. Why do it? Aren't they good enough?
It's like society has us programmed that we're never good enough, and that's sad. I'm trying to embrace my body type instead of fighting it. It's difficult to take an insecurity and turn it to your advantage. I will avoid certain pieces of clothing in the bedroom if I feel they make me look fat. And the thing is, my husband goes nuts when he sees me in them. I want to see me how he sees me. And that's what brought me to the idea of boudoir photography. I would see these gorgeous photos, but think, there's no way I'd ever look like that. I'll just wait until I lose 10 more pounds. I'm good at finding excuses not to do something. I'm not good at stepping out of my comfort zone.
I have had 2 pregnancy losses, and my weight and confidence was shaken. I felt like there was something wrong with me.
But it did make me take care of myself better. I learned that self love is super important. For a while, I dealt with a lot of anxiety. I wanted my confidence back. I wanted to feel sexy and desired. I wanted to feel like I did before my losses. I was scared that I wouldn't feel comfortable around a photographer wearing skimpy things. Tristynna was awesome. I felt immediately comfortable with her. She was very conscious about how I was feeling, and that made a huge difference. Because let's be honest, it can be awkward to be in a thong with a near stranger lol. She was a very calm presence. I was nervous that I would be uptight and awkward, and that it would show in the pictures. But I got into the zone immediately! She made it so easy and fun. I did not expect to enjoy the photo shoot. I loved it.
Like I said, I'm not what you would consider a super confident person. My body confidence went from a 5 before to a 10 after the shoot. It took a photo shoot to see myself how she saw me. My first reaction to my photos was shock. Is that me?? Are you sure? Damn that's hot! It made me realize that I am desirable. I honestly wish I would have done this sooner. My favorite part of the shoot was probably when we were ta
king pictures by the window. The way she directed me really helped with the poses. And she has such cute reactions, such as OOOOO! or Damn! It makes a girl feel good. I always feel so awkward taking more serious pictures, but she was very helpful with getting my facial expression just right, or my body positioned in a certain way. She was conscious of my insecurities, and never made me pose in a way that made me feel uncomfortable. I loved getting my hair and makeup done. I felt so beautiful, and it really helped my confidence during the shoot.
Something told me to just go for it, so I did. The photos exceeded my expectations! I want to show them off! My friends are raving, saying I look like a model. It's so surreal to hear that when previously I thought I couldn't be farther from being a model. I would encourage all women to try a boudoir session. The experience was unbelievable. My confidence is soaring! And to be honest, this won't be my last session with Tristynna.